Mad World

It’s scary that it’s been 365 days since the last time I did this. An entire year, gone, ending, and in the books of my non ending life.

And man has those 365 days been the highlights and low points of my life.

To think that I thought 2012 would only be good to me, and the day after the year starts, my “best friend” calls me disgusting, horrible, and sent me to Hell.

I should’ve taken note Hell was the theme of the year but I’m not that quick witted.

I chose my friend who got me into that situation, that brought me all that pain and problems.

And now neither one is in my life at all, funny how the two people I say I “love” are gone.

Then death struck the 3rd-4th day of the year and it was all sadness.

Then I spent 2 months trying to keep my sanity and basically lost it.

I asked my best friend to prom at about 3 in the morning and she said yes.

I got trashed drunk and had to walk a few miles home, but for the first time in forever, that night I got it in.

It was a really bad year for sex.

Sure after not having it for 2 years it was great but having 5 partners and only one you knew was actually clean without a doubt isn’t all that great.

I spent some nights, cashing in my bad luck, sobbing for someone to come back and they didn’t.

Yet when we did we’d do it and moved on.

Then I turned 18, after nearly getting arrested two days prior I became an adult.

And then a week later I hooked up with my first adult.

And the week after that, we actually ended up having sex too.

Then I watched my entire class, who I came into middle school with, graduate. Partially being grateful I had one more year to go. And the only.downside was the one person I was with for nearly 2 years always together, left before I could say anything.

And then school let out and my house was gone.

Yet the summer of Davey was born, hookah bars, beer pongs, parties, cigar nights. Anything and everything happened.

It culminated into a week in New York and a threesome at a rave.

Then I was stranded by family. When school started up I was.thousands of miles away.

My best friends got into relationships and me? I was part mediator and part outcast.

Out of the occasional party everything was muted as opposed to the beginning of the year. And I’m glad.

The people who jacked up my first half of the year in events and caused all these problems were gone. By July I was by myself at Warped tour and local shows and all that.

And I kinda prefer that.

Now the year has come.full circle, with my priority set on one person and hoping the new year treats me well.

More parties, Gradbash, senior week, a spring break in the making, New York, a possible road trip, Sunfest, Warped Tour. Prom, Graduation, Dayglow.

It’s as if now everything that was a problem, what I’ve struggled through, and have been patient for all gets to pay off in one big year.

And not to mention I start college in only a few months.

I might want to look back at this in the future so I’m just gonna ask these questions.

1.Did you get any farther with who you talked to at the end of 2012?
2.How was Gradbash and Dayglow?
3.Did Jessica go to Sunfest and/Or Warped Tour?
4.Did you end up in Valencia or UCF?
5.No fights, right?
6.Are you still close to everyone you ended this year with.

2013, don’t let me down, please.